When I heard this new release by SYML, I immediately thought of a character in my novel, Felix Lalonde; the last verse, especially.
Twisted up inside my broken mind
Outstretched dirty hands just like a child
Hungry little fool, but you were mine
You’re all I have
His infatuation, his obsession for Loren, along with his alcoholism, drove him to do things he might not have done were he sober. He might have thought about it but in my mind (because I wrote him) he would have kept playing the séducteur.
In Wheeler: In Darkness, There is Still Light, Felix is still considered a threat by those protecting Loren, although he isn’t the main threat anymore. He’s been brought to rock bottom by his actions. He’s been given a choice: enter treatment or go back to jail, a hell to which he does not want to return. If he fails in treatment, he goes back to jail. He has to take it seriously and in the end, perhaps there is redemption. Perhaps he finds forgiveness.
In my body I have a master
I bow down when she comes around
In my body I’m a disaster
I break down when you shake the ground
Every time I stand to leave my cage
In my broken body I stay
I want to love like a man
I’ll build you a home when I can
Give my new body a chance
Patient now it’s all that I have
I fought the world for your hand
Give my new body a chance
It’s all I have
In my body I fight fire
With the snow, my hell is cold
In my body I have a soft light
Burning low, but too hot to hold
I’ve become the only thing I hate
Leave this broken body today
I want to love like a man
I’ll build you a home when I can
Give my new body a chance
Patient now it’s all that I have
I fought the world for your hand
I fought the world for your hand
Give my new body a chance
It’s all I have
I was hearing words in black and white
Twisted up inside my broken mind
Outstretched dirty hands just like a child
Hungry little fool, but you were mine
You’re all I have
You’re all I have
Give my new body a chance
Wheeler 